I haven't been online for a while, so I hope no one's too upset with me--what with not commenting and all that. However, I hope that will change soon.

Anyway, I really want to wish a lovely LJ friend of mine a very happy birthday today!

Bella, I hope that you get everything you wish for on this awesome day of yours. May you get to relax, rest, and have fun. I'm really glad that we're friends. And again: Happy Birthday, girl! :-)

mood: content tags: birthday bella_voisin

I'm so sorry that this was a day late, girl! I didn't forget. But I actually thought that today was September 17. However, I found out that it was the 18th, not the 17th. Again, sorry about that. Anyway....

I just wanted to wish one of my dear LJ friends, betareject, a happy birthday. I hope that you enjoyed your special day and got everything you wanted. :-) And I'm so glad we're friends. :-) Happy Belated Birthday, girl! :-)

mood: content tags: birthday

I know I posted tons of entries on Michael Jackson for the past few months. I'm not going to stop, though. He really means a lot to me.

However, this really has been a long time coming and I shouldn't have post-poned doing this. Although, in a way I'm glad that I did. I didn't realize--until recently--that I could post my fan fic stories in my own LJ. *laughs* How very stupid and oblivious of me. *laughs again*

So I'm going to post all my fan fic stories--completed and not completed--along with more updates about what's going on in my life to balance and even out all the entries I did of Michael.

Well, to start you all off, I'm going to post my Hermione/Cedric one-shot first. It's called Library Love. For all you fan fic writers and readers out there who are on my friends' list, I hope you'll like it and please enjoy.

But first, enjoy staring at the banner I made for it for a couple of minutes, lol.



( Library Love )


Side note: I originally posted Library Love on Fan Fiction.net on March 18, 2005. I also posted it Granger Enchanted on February 1, 2008. And I posted it on the cedrichermione LJ community on February 26, 2009. I'm currently working on posting it on Harry Potter Fan Fiction.com and Forever Fandom, too.

mood: happy music: Michael Jackson tags: library love hermione/cedric one-shot

I want to wish my dear and lovely LJ friend Roaslie a.k.a. noobianrose a very happy birthday! :-)

I'm so glad that you had a wonderful joint birthday party with Michael on the 29th. When I read your entry that your mom put on the cake "Happy Birthday, Michael and Roaslie," I almost cried. That was so sweet, thoughtful, and wonderful of her. From what I can tell, your mom sounds so wonderful and loving. :-)

Well, I hope that today was special for you, too. I also hope that it was relaxing, peaceful, and joyful. And I'm so glad we're friends. So again, Happy Birthday, Rosalie! :-)

mood: happy tags: birthday noobianrose mj

Yes, I'm late. *sighs* And I'm beating myself up for it, even though I know I really shouldn't because Michael would forgive me anyway. Still, I can't help but to.

Well, I didn't get the chance to do any birthday graphics for his 51st Birthday like I originally wanted to. I tried, but no inspiration came to me. I did a new wallpaper a while ago, but it's unfinished because I can't think of a good title for it and because I feel that there's more missing to the pic, but I just don't know what. *sighs*

I feel so bad!

( All I did yesterday... )

mood: tired music: Michael Jackson -- Another Part of Me tags: mj birthday

I just want to wish a very good and dear friend of mine Vickie a.k.a. lestrange_love a very Happy Birthday! :-)

I hope that you get everything you wish for and more. I also hope that your special day is wonderful and that you'll get to relax, rest, and enjoy it, too! :-) I'm so glad that we're friends and I want you to know that you'll always be my friend... forever. :-)

mood: content tags: lestrange_love birthday

I haven't forgotten today. It still hurts like crazy. I'm still obsessed. I'm still listening to his music non-stop. The pain is still there and I'm still in mourning.

I decided a couple of weeks ago that instead of remembering the 25th as the day he passed away, I'm going to celebrate his life, his music, and his humanitarian work. But most of all, I'm gonna celebrate the 25th as the day that he changed my life and I became a fan. I think this will be a more fitting way to honor and remember Michael, the King of Pop.

Also, his birthday is coming up. *cries* I have decided to make some graphics for his 51st birthday, but I'm way behind schedule. I hope that I can pick up the slack (is this the correct phrase?), get move a move on, and start working on them. I really don't wanna be late. :-(

Anyway, I couldn't do much for him today because I got some shocking news (which I will talk about in another entry) and on top of that I haven't been feeling good. I got a headache and took some Tylenol to relieve it. Well, the Tyenol made me so drowsy and sleepy that I can't fight the sleep any longer. I'm gonna go to bed very soon, but I wanted to post this up before it got too late.

Despite my drowsiness and sleepiness, I did think about him all day, though.

I also thought of how wonderful it is that I've been a fan for two months. Yeah, not a long time, but it's still special to me. However, like I said, I'm gonna celebrate his life rather than the day he died. I'm gonna celebrate the day he changed my life forever; the day I became a fan. He will always be honored, remembered, and missed. So, I will also continue to honor and remember him always and in the best ways I know how.

To all my fellow M. J. friends, how are the rest of you guys coping with his passing? Has it gotten any better or worse for you? *hugs to you all*

I love you always and forever, Michael. I'm off to bed.....

mood: sleepy tags: anniversary michael jackson fan

I did two more LJ memes. They're not M. J. related, only random ones without a name. The first meme I was tagged to do by my best friend Angelique a.k.a. hp1fan. Since it is required to tag people, I will tag some of you guys to do it. If you guys don't wanna do it, that's okay. It doesn't bother me.

The second meme I stole from my lovely and wonderful friend noobianrose. This meme also requires for you to tag people. noobianrose didn't tag anyone, but I'm going to tage people for this one, too. And again, if you guys don't wanna do it, I have no problem with that.

( LJ meme tagged by Angelique )


( LJ meme I stole from noobianrose )

mood: tired music: Michael Jackson tags: lj memes

I just wanted to wish my lovely LJ friend and also a fellow M. J. fan, purrrqueen, a very Happy Birthday! I hope that you get everything you want and more for your very special day. ^_^ I also hope that you'll get to rest and relax.

Again, Happy Birthday, girl. ^_^

mood: content music: Michael Jackson -- Bad tags: birthday cake purrrqueen

Yeah, I am reluctant to post my new Michael Jackson graphics. I was even reluctant to post them on Photobucket. These new pieces are quite dear to me and it feels like I can't part with them. Especially because some were requested and thus are dedicated to my wonderful mom again. And I am also reluctant because the quality of some of the pics, particularly the Thriller ones, aren't that great.

I haven't posted these graphics on any Michael Jackson communities yet, only with the exception of Remember The Time. I made two entries in the ____mjfans____ and mjfans communities already yesterday and today on different subjects. I'm gonna wait a day or two before I make another entry over there, lol.

I hope that you will all enjoy my new creations. And knowing this wonderful group of friends that I have, I know that you guys will definitely enjoy them. ^_^ I'm gonna make some commentaries on the graphics and I recommend you read them. It's important. ^_^ Please enjoy and feel free to snag anything you wish. ^_^

( My New M. J. Goodies )

I apologize if I elaborated too much on the graphics, but it was needed. I hope that you can understand why. And also, I'm a very elaborate person when I speak and write. I mean what I write. If I didn't mean it, I wouldn't write it. Thus, it's important. Regardless I hope you all enjoyed my new work. ^_^

mood: nervous music: Michael Jackson -- Bad tags: mj graphics bad thriller watw

OK, I'm going to post my Hermione centric graphics first rather than my new M. J. graphics. I will post my M. J. graphics in a few days from now. Besides, these Hermione graphics have been a long time coming. The graphics have been on Photobucket for a month or more, so that's why I'm posting them up first.

I don't know who said this, but an M. J. fan and LJ user stated that Michael Jackson became a fandom himself because millions upon millions of fans make tons of graphics on him. And I agree. So, I will keep my M. J. graphics separate from my Hermione and other fandoms graphics.

One last thing, I do want to let my M. J. fan friends know that I did finish most of my M. J. graphics that I was working on. I'm working on a few more. I don't want to bombard you all with all of them. I might make separate entries, but I'm still undecided on that. Either way, they'll all get posted soon, lol. ^_^

Anyway, enjoy my Hermione centric graphics.

( My Hermione Graphics )

mood: okay music: Michael Jackson -- This Time Around tags: hermione granger graphics banner wallpap

Happy Birthday, Angelique! I hope that you get everything you want today, girl. I also hope that you get to enjoy, relax, rest, and do whatever you please since it is your special day. ^_^

I'm sorry that I didn't get you anything or did anything for you. :-( But I want you to know that I <3 you very much and I'm so glad that we're friends--the best of friends. ^_^ You're special to me and I want you to know that.

Again, I hope you enjoy your very wonderful, special day. ^_^

mood: happy tags: birthday hp1fan

I'm a little late, but I wanted to post this. I'm still sad about M. J. I also realized I'm still in mourning and obsessed. I think this is getting to be a little bit un-healthy. But surrounding myself with him does help me at times, too, if you know what I mean. *sighs*

I spent the day thinking about him, his life, listening to his music, and making some new icons of him. I'm also working on some wallpapers now. I'm not finished with them, but I'm getting there.

I hope that with time I won't be in mourning anymore and that I'll start to move on, which won't be easy--for any of us. I don't even want to think about next month, though! :-(

I'll post my M. J. wallpapers and icons when I'm done along with wallpapers and banners I created from other fandoms.

Sorry I keep talking about M. J. I bet you guys are annoyed with me. Though, I don't blame you, lol.

For my other friends who are M. J. fans, I hope you're doing slightly better than me.... *hugs to all*

mood: sad tags: michael jackson anniversary

I'm experimenting with making icons now. To be completely honest, I think I'm crap at making and that they're full of crap. But hopefully I will get better with time. So, since I think they're crappy, I'm gonna let you all be the judges of them. ^_^ Oh, goody...

Also, if you take and use them, please credit me. Thanks. ^_^

Well, without further ado, feast your poor little eyes on them:

Ghosts

1.2.3.4.

Smooth Criminal

1.2.3.4.

Bad

1.2.3.4.
5.6.7.8.
9.10.11.12.

I'm gonna make a post in the mjfans: victorious over all community and then I'm going to bed. I'm so sleepy. Later on tonight I'm gonna make some posts in the other M. J. communities that I'm a member of, directing more/other people to see these crappy icons, lol.

Oh, and I hope your guys' eyes aren't too sore from looking at these pics, lol. Ah... bad joke....

Good night/morning/whatever

mood: sleepy music: Michael Jackson -- This Time Around tags: michael jackson icons bad ghosts smooth

Damn. Where the fuck should I begin?

I'm sorry I'm using profanity, but I curse a lot at home. And it's kind of hard to break the habit when your own mom curses like a sailor non-stop, lol. It does feel good, though; you release your anger and stress.

Anyway....

( What. The. Fuck?! )

mood: pissed off music: Michael Jackson tags: shocked pissed poem michael jackson

I stole this Michael Jackson quiz from famelessbeing because I think it's really cool. Without any further ado, here it is:


1) What’s your earliest Michael Jackson memory?

In 1993 when I was 8 years old, my friend told me that she liked Michael and at the same time my mom became an instant fan of him and his music after we both watched Free Willy and heard Will You Be There. Though sadly, I brushed them off and did not become a fan at that time. :-(

2) Top 5 favorite songs?

Only five? Pooh, lol. Here they are, anyway….

Bad
Man In The Mirror
Black Or White
Remember The Time

Last is a tie between Billie Jean and The Way You Make Me Feel.

3) What are your favorite lyrics?

“I’m starting with the man in the mirror. I’m asking him to change his ways. And no message could’ve been any clearer. If you wanna make the world a better place, take a look at yourself; then make a change.”

4) What’s your favorite music video?

Bad

5) Have you tried to do the moonwalk? If so was it successful?

Unfortunately: no, lol.

6) What’s your favorite outfit of his?

It’s a tie between his outfits from the music videos Bad and Black Or White.

7) Did you ever want to dress in that outfit?

Yeah, and I still want to, lol.

8) Did you ever wish of being him when you grew up?

Nope.

9) When you were younger did you want to marry him?

Nope, but I do now. *blushes* Lol.

10) Do you know all the steps to Thriller?

Nope and unfortunately, I don’t know any of the steps.

11) What’s your favorite Michael era? (Example: Jackson 5, Off The Wall, Thriller, Beat It, Bad, Dangerous or History?)

It’s a three-way tie between Bad, Dangerous, and HIStory.

12) Since his passing what have you done to celebrate and pay respects to him?

I’ve been listening to his music and songs non-stop. I’ve been watching You Tube videos of him, too. I made 25 icons and 1 banner of him. I’ve written two Live Journal entries in my Live Journal account about my feelings of him, his music, and his passing and I’m working on writing a lot more.

I’ve written one poem of him and I’m working on another one. Until I have the resources to make some small difference outside my home in the world like he did to honor him that way, these are the only ways I can think of to honor him, his music, his life and career... for now.

13) What’s one thing that you’ll miss most about Michael?

I won’t miss one thing. I’ll miss everything. I’ll miss his presence, his smile, his voice, his eyes, his mind (intelligence), his sweet, loving, loving, kind, caring, giving, gentle, peaceful, warm, beautiful, and wonderful heart, soul, and mind. I’ll just miss him.

mood: content music: Michael Jackson -- Billie Jean tags: michael jackson lj quiz meme

I wanted the title to be This Is It, but I realized that title was the same title Michael used for his comeback concerts and I guess in the end I couldn't find the strength to use it.

OK, I am going to talk about Michael again. I'm sorry, but I need to let this out. I used to bottle things up a lot when I was younger and it was really bad when I did that. When I started to let things out, I felt a lot better. So, I need to let this out because I need to feel a little better.

As usual I don't expect comments, but I just need some people to listen, you know. I need some support and shoulders to lean on.

So, I did not want yesterday to come, even though I knew it was going to come inevitably.

I watched Michael's memorial service with my folks on CNN.com online live yesterday. I cried throughout the whole thing. I couldn't stop, really. There were about four to five performances and speeches that made me cry louder, though.

My mom completely lost it when Jennifer sang Will You Be There and that's when I lost it, too. Then when Usher sang, going to his casket, and then he went to kneel at Mrs. Jackson's feet, crying, I cried some more.

When Marlon spoke to Michael, then told a story about how he saw through Michael's disguise in a music store, and then told Michael to give his twin brother a hug for him, I cried even more.

And lastly, when his daughter, Paris, spoke about how Michael was "the best dad you can ever imagine," I bursted into tears some more.

After the memorial service was over, CNN was going to have a replay of it. But I didn't have the heart to watch it again. Frankly, I really didn't know what to do anymore. That was it. It became really real. He's gone and he's never coming back. *cries*

I didn't know if I should do some wallpapers, banners, manips, or icons of him, or if I should read the news to see what they were saying about the memorial service.

Like I said, I didn't--and still don't--know what to do. I felt--and still feel--so empty. My heart feels the same--empty. I don't want think about how life will be like without him. I don't want to feel happy again, but I know that I need to move on slowly but surely.

I know that if I'm feeling like this and I'm just a fan that got into his music after he died, I can only imagine what his children, entire family, friends, and other fans (who were fans of his longer) must be feeling right now.

In my previous post, I said that my folks tried to get me into him a few years ago, specifically in 2007 and that was the truth. But I forgot to mention that in 1993, my friend told me that she liked Michael and that my mom became an instant fan of his after she listened to Will You Be There from Free Willy.

But very sadly I brushed them both off about Michael.

So, in reality, I could've been a fan of Michael for sixteen years, but I let the opportunity pass me by. It's really sad and I'll forever regret this. However, yes, I am really glad that I got into his music, even though it was after he died.

I also feel like a have lost a new found friend. Yes, I found a new friend in Michael as I got to know him through his music. His personality is so much like mine that it's not even funny. And he will forever be my friend and it's really not fair that he's gone.

I'm a very religious person so I know that God needed him back home. It was his time to go. Of course that doesn't make the pain and heartache any less easier, especially for his three wonderful and beautiful children. But Michael is in a better place now. He's no longer in pain. He's no longer suffering. They are no longer hurting him 'cause there is no media where he is.

I'm glad that I had my folks to talk to about this, especially my mom and my best friend, Angelique. Angelique saw the memorial, too, and we talked on Yahoo! IM after the service and that made me feel a little bit better, too. Angelique even posted a journal about the memorial on her LJ, too. It was very beautiful. *cries*

But most of all, the memorial service was beautiful. *cries* I laughed, I cried, I smiled, and I rejoiced.

Yes, our hearts feel empty because he's not there--and here on Earth--to fill it. But I also know that with God's help little by little we will get through this. His children, brothers, sisters, parents, extended family, friends, and other fans across the world will slowly but surely get through this. He will live forever and ever because his music will live forever and ever.

We will remember him through his music and all the people, especially children, he helped all over the world. He was not just a music icon, a pop icon; yes, that is a given. To me and other people, too, he was a great, great man. Like many people said, he was a son, a brother, a friend, but most of all, a father.

You can all say whatever you want, but that is the honest truth.

He was a wonderful and beautiful man, person, and human being. And he was also the greatest humanitarian, besides Jesus Christ, in the world that ever lived.

I'm speaking to all the haters and racist bastards now.

Yes, he was the greatest humanitarian in the world. He proved it by being the only entertainer that donated more money (millions of dollars) to more charities than any other celebrity out there in the world.

In your face, you fucks' cause what have you ever done, eh? Enlighten me!

OK, I needed to let that one out, too.

We love and miss you, Michael. I love and miss you, Michael. *cries* And I will definitely make it my business to go and see you in heaven when it's my time to go, too.

location: At home mood: crushed music: Michael Jackson tags: sad emotional crushed michael jackson

You all probably know what I’m going to talk about right now, so I’ll totally understand if you’re not gonna comment to this post (as I don’t expect you to, lol) and I’m cool with that.

But, I just really need to say what I’m going to say because I need to let it out. I’ll hopefully also feel a little lighter in doing so because not only is my heart heavy, but I’ve been crying on and off and now I’ve become a little depressed as well.

When I read on Yahoo! news June 25th (2009) that Michael Jackson died, I absolutely thought that it was someone’s very sad and poor attempt at a very cruel joke.

I read the article all the way through, though, and I found out that it was, indeed, true. My jaw dropped open and I covered it with my left hand. I stayed like that for a while, even after I had long finished reading the said article in full detail, because I was just so shocked. (I still am.) I thought—and still think—that this was/is all a very horrible dream, a very terrible nightmare and that I’ll wake up and sigh with relief because he's still alive and it REALLY was a dream.

I’ve never really listened to Michael’s music, but I loved some of his songs. My mom and step-dad was way more into him than me, especially my step-dad as he was in his teens when Thriller came out. He's been a fan since then.

A couple of years ago, both my mom and step-dad tried to get me into him and his music, but I brushed them off. My mom told me that she wasn’t going to persuade me or pressure me to listen to his music because she wanted me to discover him on my own. I did respect my mom for her respecting me enough to tell me that. My step-dad just didn’t say anything, he just let me be and I respected him for that, too.

Well, three days ago I decided to finally listen to his music, to finally discover what Michael was all about for me.

So, for these past 3 days that’s what I’ve been doing almost non-stop with hardly any interruptions. It’s just been Michael, his music, and me and vice versa.

Through his music and songs, I found out what kind of a man, person, and human being Michael was.

I found out how much he loved everyone. And I’m not just talking about his family, friends, and fans. I mean, this man loved the ENTIRE HUMAN RACE with all of his heart unconditionally and endlessly.

Through his songs, I found out what a TRULY loving, loving, caring, kind, sweet, beautiful, and wonderful man, person, and human being he was. I found out for MYSELF that all he wanted to do was to make the world a better place for EVERYONE. He loved the children of this world so much that he wanted to make the world a better place for them, most of all.

And I came to completely understand why he never wanted to grow-up, why he wanted to retain a hold of his childhood, the one he never got to have, and why he wanted to retain his child-like innocence and qualities.

As I came to completely understand him, I came to love him unconditionally and endlessly in return.

But, as I found out these things, I began to beat (no pun intended) myself up for not discovering him and his music when my parents tried to get me to those few years ago. I realized that I could’ve cheered, supported, screamed, shouted, and swooned for him when he was still alive like many other people did. But I let the opportunity pass me by.

This is what will haunt me and what I will regret until the day that I will pass away, too.

Yeah, I can still watch his older concerts and pass on his legacy to my descendants (if I ever get the chance to get married and have kids that is), but it would not be the same.

I became a fan of him just a little too late.

I asked my mom, because I wanted to ease some of my guilt and regret, “Do you think that when I pass away and hopefully I will go to heaven, too, that I will get to meet him and vice versa, and we will get to talk, sing, and dance together?”

She said, “Yes, of course. We will all get to meet him along with Ray Charles, James Brown, Elvis, Fred and Ginger, Gene Kelly, Dean Martin, and so many others and we'll all make sweet and wonderful music together. Do you think God doesn’t like music? No. He loves it and delights in it, so we’ll all sing and dance forever.”

I took some comfort in her words, but, like I said, it will still haunt me until the day I die.

I’ll probably never get over his death as I’m completely sure that his family, friends, and fans never will, either. His shocking death reminds me of Elvis’, Princess Diana’s, and J. F. K., Jr.’s. They’ve all went too soon, too, and now so did he. It really is unbelievable. I still can’t process it in my mind and I probably never will.

I'll love him forever. And I will miss him until the day that I will pass away, too, and until I'll meet him on that one sweet day.

My sincere prayers and condolences are with his entire family, friends, and fans.

So, to further ease my guilt and regret and to also pay some small tribute to Michael Jackson, the ‘King of Pop’, I made 25 icons and 1 banner of him. I will make more in the coming days.

Please enjoy and feel free to snag them if you wish.

Always & Forever


Always & Forever 2


Always & Forever 3


Always & Forever 4


Always & Forever 5


Always & Forever 6


Always & Forever 7


Always & Forever 8


Always & Forever 9


Always & Forever 10


Always & Forever 11


Always & Forever 12


Always & Forever 13


Always & Forever 14


Always & Forever 15


Always & Forever 16


Always & Forever 17


Always & Forever 18


Always & Forever 19


Always & Forever 20


Always & Forever 21


Always & Forever 22


Always & Forever 23


Always & Forever 24


Always & Forever 25


The title on these icons is from Luther Vandross' song Always & Forever.

Black or White


The title is from Michael's song Black or White. I made this banner because he was truly a beautiful man and person inside and outside. Like he said in this song, it really doesn't matter if you're black or white. But most of all, it really didn't matter if HE was black or white. He could've been purple, pink, or blue with white poka dots and it wouldn't have mattered.

location: At home mood: sad music: Michael Jackson tags: banner, icons, michael jackson

YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I want to know 28 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never really clicked, or if we already know everything about each other. I really don't. You are obviously on my flist, so let me know with whom I'm friends!

1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarky) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!)
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

location: At home mood: sad music: Michael Jackson tags: hp1fan, lj quiz, meme

I just wanted to also wish one of my best friends a very, very happy birthday. ^_^ So, Happy Birthday, Rachel. I hope your day was great so far and that it will continue to be great for the rest of the afternoon and evening. ^_^

I'm at the librbary since I have no internet access in my house, so I don't think I'll have the time to send you a Happy Birthday E-card. And I'm broke 'cause I still have no job (growls), so I can't buy you a card and mail it to you. Sorry, girl.

Anyway, I hope that you get everything you want. You deserve nothing but the best on your special day. ^_^

Also, I'll try to send the corrections of your story tomorrow. I knew I should've e-mailed it to you before my internet got shut off. *growls* I never listen to my instincts and now I'm rambling, when I should be talking about your B-day. *sighs*

Anyway, enjoy the rest of your day, girl. And before I forget, my mom wanted me to tell you that she also wishes you a very happy birthday! ^_^

location: At the library mood: happy